Lita Ford

I'm just a sweet transvestite, from transexual, Transylvania!

You know that feeling when you're in a group, but you don't really feel like you belong there?
That's how I feel with all my friends.
I feel like I'm the one they talk shit about, when I'm not around.
'Cause they never call or try to hang out with me.
Unless their desperate.
It's like getting picked last for the team.
Every. Single. Time.
And it feels bad.
It feels bad to be unwanted.
I hate my friends.
I hate them almost as much as they hate me.
I wish they were all dead more than I wish I was dead.

Halloween Reminiscence

I know I haven't posted in a while, or especially posted anything of this nature in a while but here we go again. I miss doing my makeup, I miss Halloween! It doesn't have to be Halloween for me to be dark though, according to my looks Halloween may as well be everyday.

I really don't want to be at school today.

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Face. Smash. Keyboard.

I remember the night, I do.
Just not in great detail.
It's almost as if,
it had been turned on mute.
Because I remember no words at all.
Only the movement of your lips.
Like we were fighting underwater.
Then bobbing to the surface of soberiety,
and wondering what all those bubbles that escaped your lips even meant.

If I could do it all over again, without being able to change a thing, I would.
It seems so strange, but I long for it.
If I could do it all over, I would only do it slower.
I'd take every second into my lungs, and breathe life back into it.
Watching hopelessly, desperately wanting to fix all the pain, all the mistakes.
Trapped.
I'd suffer through it all, see it crumble away slowly.
Again and again and again.
I would put us on a never ending loop.
Until we were dead and gone.